Wednesday Words #3

It’s Wednesday so time to link up with Crazy With Twins Wednesday Words feature.

How long will I love you

This week has been quite difficult for me.  I am struggling with some anxiety.

This Sunday will mark the anniversary of the day Matilda Mae was cruelly taken by SIDS, she simply went to sleep and never woke up.  My heart breaks for her family every day.  It makes me hold my baby tighter.

I love this song and my eyes fill with tears whenever I hear it.  To me it is my song to my baby and I feel it is a song for all the babies who have been taken, especially Matilda Mae.  Wherever they are we will always love our babies.  They will always fill our hearts.

If you would like to support the Lullaby Trust, who are working to eradicate SIDS, you will find their website here.

Wednesdays wordsWhy not check out Wednesday Words #1 and #2

A Letter To Matilda Mae #matildamae

Dear Tilda,

Just over a year ago you were taken away.

I never got to meet you, but I feel as if I did.

You hold a place in my heart and I think about you every day.

I have shed tears for you and often still do.

This is down to your mummy.

She will never forget you, nor will we.

She raises money tirelessly to stop it happening to others.

She is always finding ways to celebrate your life.

She is remarkable.

You would be so proud of such a mummy.

We see stars, bubbles and lights and we think of you.

You were taken away far too soon and you have taken some of your mummy’s heart.

She will continue to make a legacy in your name.

Sweet dreams beautiful girl

xxxx

I have written this letter to baby Tilda who was cruelly taken by SIDS on 2nd February 2013 at exactly 9 months old.  This letter forms a part of a collection of letters on Ghost Writer Mummy’s blog to honour Tilda’s life and to show support for her amazing mum Jennie.  Who despite her grief has raised a considerable amount of money for The Lullaby Trust for research into SIDS.  To try and stop this from happening to other babies and families and for that, we should all thank Jennie. x

Letters for Matilda Mae

Remembering Matilda Mae – Welly Walk

Today Mr Hubby, Baby and I went to the Welly Walk in memory of Matilda Mae and to raise money for the The Lullaby Trust

Matilda Mae was 9 months old when she tragically died from SIDS and her family has worked tirelessly to raise awareness and funds for The Lullaby Trust ever since.

I never met Matilda Mae, but through her mum Jennie’s writing (in her blog Edspire), I find myself touched my Matilda’s story every day.  As a mum, to imagine what this family has gone through is almost impossible to bear.  This makes what this family has managed to accomplish, whilst grieving, in the last 9 months, even more mind blowing.  To be able to create something positive out of such dark times is quite simply amazing.

The Welly Walk was held at Beale Park in Reading.  After a musical gymboree warm up, we set off on the Welly walk.  The route was through lovely scenery and was lined with purple and pink balloons, Jennie and family led the way.  Then we gathered outside the Pavillion to blow bubbles and listen to the most amazing classical musicians.  Baby loved the bubbles.

Bubbles

Then there were various activities that you could take part in for the afternoon.  We took Baby for a walk as she really needed a nap and we wandered around while she snoozed.  It was lovely just to have the time with Mr Hubby to just be and not worry about anything or feel like I should be doing something.  When Baby woke up we took her to the playground.  She had a lovely time and had her first go on a swing, slide and ride on animal.  She had such fun!.

Playground

Mr Hubby took his camera so we took lots of pictures of her with mummy

Cuddles with mummy

It was our first proper whole day out and I was so proud of our little girl as she didn’t grumble and was a joy to be with all day.  Mr Hubby couldn’t resist taking some more pictures of her.  We always lift her up and tell her she is the tallest baby in the world, so Mr Hubby thought he would check!

Baby

Then, various prizes were given out and thanks were given.  I was in awe of Jennie’s courage, what an inspiration.  I have no words, yet I had to say something, in the end a cuddle was enough.  When we left we were given sparklers to light for Tilda.  I must admit by this point I was quite emotional, but the day was one to remember a special life taken far too early and was a day of joy and happiness.

If anyone would like to donate to The Lullaby Trust Jennie’s Just Giving page is here